over time, the pain nvr goes away....
I honestly don't know if I'm even heading towards the right direction in life right now. When it comes to sharing what happened about the separation of my parents to my friends, I seem to come off as a brave a girl trying to take a stand in what I think is right. And even how right I may be, that does not simply mean that I can actually fulfill my wants. I have a right to meet mom whenever i want to but why does it feel so wrong to run away from dad each time i want to meet her? That is exactly my point. I'm still incapable of taking things under my own hands. It wasn't my choice to live this kind of way either.I feel so tired and sick of whats been happening to me. Its been 7 years ever since the separation ended and just as I thought things would get better, it never did. If it wasn't because of age factor, I wouldn't be facing the same problems. All I need is understanding from both parties. And I need you to know, mom and dad, this is the mistake you two have made and I.... siblings and myself are paying for that.
Countless times I wish I could run away from the fact that my life has ended up this way but who am I kidding, things would only get worse. Physically and mentally tired. Please Mom&Dad, stop questioning, give us a break. Im JUST TOO TIRED.
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